risaxseph [1:12 AM]
<start sim> Lumi left the bridge to Yuka repairs were currently underway so not much was really going on. It was a really uneventful night almost to the point of being something that could be slept through. She actually felt like she could be awake for a little longer though something she had realized was that in artificially regulating ones circadian rhythm humans were not necessarily meant to be awake at night... is pretty much all health literature said night shift workers were generally in poorer health and those who work during the day. She could address her own concerns for now with her medical knowledge but if they continue to be a problem she figured she would reach out to medical. For now though she headed to the mess hall. As Blom had been working with the crew and proved that he could be trusted as well as assisted quite a lot with negotiations he had been released from the brig and provided quarters.
[1:14]
(Androids this advanced would probably be able to eat granted they wouldn't really need to but yeah)
tugar
[1:15 AM]
Blom was conversing with some crew members and had gotten up as Lumi entered the room. "Ah, Miss Trouve. Won't you join me if you aren't sitting with anyone else." He said, sipping on a very large mug of coffee.
risaxseph [1:19 AM]
"Uh... Sure." Lumi said after getting a coffee herself and something small for dinner. It was some rather odd dish. It was pretty much indistinguishable but it seems to be some kind of combination of various tastes and nutrients. When people had asked her what this was in the past she called it her version of a salad. (it's basically a bunch of vitamins and minerals with stuff added for taste... she thinks taste is an interesting prospect but nutrition is also a requirement to even though there are things that taste good. Things that taste like things that taste good that are not as unhealthy.)
[1:20]
(The coffee is black)
tugar
[1:20 AM]
"Ok...I must ask. Is that dinner?"
risaxseph [1:21 AM]
"It is. I call it salad."
tugar
[1:21 AM]
"Nothing wrong with salad, but there is something to be said for a good BLT with garden fresh tomatoes." Niklas added.
risaxseph [1:23 AM]
"Bacon is usually fat though... I understand what health purpose a little bit of fat would serve that at a certain point it would just be over indulging it would be like the cheesecake Yuka gave me... for too much confection... it is a wonder that people do not have a coma and immediately pass out from the amount of sugar."
[1:24]
"though I guess that could be said about the alcohol that I had with them to... it causes an interesting effect..."
tugar
[1:26 AM]
"Three or four slices of bacon do not amount to overindulgence young lady. Plus....don't knock it til you try it. I was interested in your take on the Candy situation though. Very glad we got away from there. She's not balanced." (edited)
risaxseph [1:28 AM]
"... not... balanced?" She asks as she takes a bite of nutritional objects number C 85 which apparently tastes somewhat like chicken that contains all of the omega fatty acids of fish along with a number of vitamins combined in a specific mixture to ensure that none of them dilute each other or counter affect one another (edited)
[1:29]
(got a love that analogy that everything tastes like chicken)
tugar
[1:31 AM]
"Emotionally. Mentally. Take you pick." Niklas said. "You eat like a computer. Food should also an emotional experience."
risaxseph [1:33 AM]
"but this provides the taste of chicken and the nutrition of fish... this one provides the nutrition of fruits and vegetables but tastes like lettuce..." she explains trying to justify her choosing of the weird nutritional "things" that were scattered about her plate. "She was like me though..."
[1:35]
(at least she eats a little less like the Borg)
tugar
[1:37 AM]
"She was physically like you. A wrapper. The candy bar inside is what counts, if you understand the analogy." He paused to sip at his coffee. "I'd like to see what the differences are between us. You and I are nearly polar opposite. You went from computer to flesh, while I did the reverse. Though through force of action."
risaxseph [1:40 AM]
"I chose this because I felt it would be an interesting experience and I would be able to further my knowledge and surpass what I was initially created to be... you did not have such a choice... I used to be much more immature than I am now though however I can still use work... I was hoping to make a friend and her however that did not happen because I tried to explain to her how humanity was superior and more able to adapt than our programming... I wonder if I will have failures like this when I date."
[1:43]
"I wanted to impress Yuka when I first became human you know but so much has changed; you do not mind if I refer to the captain by her first name?"
tugar
[1:45 AM]
"Only if it would bother her to do so. I do admire your tenacity on a subject, though I am surprised you didn't pick up on her body language. Android or not, she was giving signals."
risaxseph [1:50 AM]
"I know that I was angering Candy but I was hoping that would break through... some personalities allow for someone to mold them if they get through... though maybe that was the wrong approach... unfortunately I cannot turn back time. Some may believe that I disrespect Captain Layton by calling her Yuka... I see her sort of an older sister so it is not disrespect; I look up to her."
tugar
[1:54 AM]
"Live and learn. I'm not sure I want to ever go back to a human body. There are things that I miss. Tastes are similar though not perfect. I'm intrigued by the chance it's given me to have a second life. One without infirmities or malady."
risaxseph [1:57 AM]
"There are ways to adjust your abilities to be able to allow you to experience most of humanity... I have written the program that I used on the artificial intelligence for my mech that allowed him to explore sexuality and love. This was before I understood them so the program was incomplete but I believe there are ways we can adjust for the inconsistencies and allow you to experience the best of both... it is an adjustment..."
[1:58]
(Both humanity and machine)
[1:59]
(she still doesn't sexuality or love lol)
tugar
[2:01 AM]
"Interesting. The magnificent range of things this body can do surprises me. Sometimes in ways that are frightening, for example, breaking your arm. I was not prepared for it. Even now I find myself occasionally compensating. Being a very old man in a very strong body is certainly different."
risaxseph [2:04 AM]
"well I still find myself in a similar situation with this body... The pain felt... The excruciating nature of it... it was extremely undesirable and bleeding out was actually interesting noticing my consciousness fade... I wonder if there's any medical literature written by people as they were actually going unconscious do to the blood-loss... there are many very fun things about this body and there are many very annoying things about it especially since being female... I do not need to explain this..." (edited)
tugar
[2:08 AM]
"Certainly not"
risaxseph [2:08 AM]
She picks up the plate with the nutritional items and takes it to the replicator and has it exchange the items for a sandwich then comes back over.
[2:11]
It was slightly toasted and contained bacon lettuce tomatoes and pepper jack cheese. She tries it.
[2:12]
Even though the cheese was not actually spicy this was the first time she had really experienced anything being even mild. She didn't whine or anything but sort of had this confused look on her face.
tugar
[2:13 AM]
"What's the problem?" Niklas asked.
risaxseph [2:15 AM]
"It is... a very slight... I would say almost burning sensation..." she replied after she had finished the bite.
tugar
[2:16 AM]
"Burning as in heat or spice level?"
risaxseph [2:17 AM]
"... spice... I believe the term would be spicy... not quite actually maybe mild..."
tugar
[2:18 AM]
"I had a coworker that would eat the hottest peppers around like candy. The compound in it does cause burning but also can release the body's natural endorphins. A good bowl of hot chili will do that."
[2:19]
"just be careful not to rub your eyes if you touch a pepper. You will regret it." (edited)
risaxseph [2:21 AM]
"... so it can elicit a chemical response..." she seems interested in this topic now and wants to look at more information about it. For now though she continues to eat. when she finishes the sandwich she then deposits the plate away and returns then turns to him. "... so what other sort of things do you know of that give the same type of responses?"
tugar
[2:23 AM]
"Pain? A good roast beef with horseradish will do that. Or sushi with wasabi paste. Even a spicy brown mustard with pastrami on rye. Or are you asking about responses in general. Like chocolate. Or comfort food?"
risaxseph [2:26 AM]
"... all of the above... I have had chocolate though it provides a similar sensation and other sugary things it makes you want more... as you said it's a Comfortable sort of feeling... do you know a lot about dating and that sort of thing?"
tugar
[2:26 AM]
"I was married for many decades. So at least one good date." He joked. (edited)
[2:27]
"Elisa was the love of my life for nearly 46 years,"
risaxseph [2:29 AM]
"i've been working on trying to learn about it and other things with a partner that myself and the first officer created... my goal is to experience life and I have been told this body can have children... I do not know what purpose offspring would serve me but I have not eliminated the possibility that in my future I may have them. What happened to her?"
tugar
[2:34 AM]
"She contracted a strain of something and lay down one night. We both thought it was an average flu bug going around., She never woke up. I still miss her. We had two kids. Evelyn and Conrad. Chidren are at once the largest pain in the world, and the greatest fulfillment you can imagine." (edited)
risaxseph [2:36 AM]
"what does that mean... as an AI I had no use for such thoughts if I needed additional crew or needed parts replaced it was just provided there was no need to think about creating more of myself..."
[2:36]
"and I'm sorry for your loss."
tugar
[2:38 AM]
"Thank you, though it was ten years ago, it still feels like yesterday sometimes. They aren't you. That's the point. They grow up to be themselves, though you try to instill your morals in them, they do what they want. Like Yuka....she's someone else. You said yourself she feels like a sister. Imagine that a hundred times more intense as you created it. When Evelyn was born, she stole my heart the first time I held her in hospital." (edited)
risaxseph [2:42 AM]
"I see... I guess I should have assumed as much as logically if everyone with the same however there be so many different personalities. I would imagine run in the family is like running the ship. As for Sex it is quite motivating in and of itself to get you to want to have children though... it is very... fun..."
[2:43]
"Though for some people I bet they would never have children if it were not for that so it's a natural motivator."
tugar
[2:45 AM]
Niklas blushed. " I can imagine a flood of potential suitors clamoring at your doorstep for the chance. Candy was lurid, obvious with her sexuality. Though part of that may lie in her programming. She was a concubine." (edited)
[2:45]
"You are different thankfully."
risaxseph [2:47 AM]
"... I've not had offers actually... my situation became how it was because of a crewmember I had initially I was never created to have such thoughts."
tugar
[2:48 AM]
"Incredulous. Even at my advanced years, you cast a tempting silhouette that any man not looking should be examined for a pulse." Niklas offered. (edited)
risaxseph [2:48 AM]
"she stored her sexual exploits as recordings in a hidden area. When I was upgraded I went into that area and began to evaluate the material... at first I thought about it as only creating offspring so I wondered why she would do such things."
[2:49]
"... I've not actually really asked anyone to be honest... I only just put up a dating profile."
tugar
[2:49 AM]
"She being Yuka, I assume."
risaxseph [2:51 AM]
"No Sakura Carain The cousin to the president... this was a couple years ago before any of you were on board. However after that upgrade and after I started to understand what happened and I eventually met Yuka I started assuming that she was sexually promiscuous and attacked her for it... I would later come to figure out that she was a virgin... from that moment on I have been absolutely infatuated with her..."
[2:52]
"I absolutely adore everything about her..."
[2:52]
"even when she's depressed and I have to help her through it."
tugar
[2:55 AM]
"Infatuation is rarely love in my experience. But this discussion will need to be tabled for the moment. We can resume at another time. I offered to teach one of the Marines some piano and I detest someone who isn't punctual. Will you grant me leave of your inspiring visage?" (edited)
risaxseph [2:56 AM]
"we can talk more later." She said nodding. "and that's why I consider her more like family now because I've started to realize that we are more kindred spirits than lovers I like her because I want to be like her not because I want to have her children or make her a part of myself."
tugar
[2:57 AM]
(it's late)
risaxseph [2:57 AM]
"you have a good time."
tugar
[2:58 AM]
"Thank you and we will meet again I'd count on it." Niklas winked at her.
risaxseph [2:58 AM]
<end sim>
risaxseph [11:19 PM]
<START SIM> Lumi had taken a nap and then she decided she would go and review information on what she and Blom had talked about in their previous conversation. The ship had a library even though such a thing was not really required since most things were computer terminals tehse days it was basically just a public study space.
tugar
[11:19 PM]
(Such as?)
risaxseph [11:23 PM]
(Food and things that cause physical responses... )
tugar
[11:28 PM]
(Short list would be peppers, curries, mustards, horseradish, ice creams, cheese, fatty foods in general. Cravings, like popcorn tater chips, nachos, poutine, on and on.)
[11:28]
( There is a chocolate cake milkshake)
risaxseph [11:29 PM]
(she's basically trying to assimilate knowledge... lol)
tugar
[11:30 PM]
(would it be better to compile a list of the most requested and on the flip...items that are rare)
[11:30]
(caviar for example.)
risaxseph [11:33 PM]
considering the system brings up hundreds of items when she looks up all of this information she decides to shorten the parameters by comparing it against the list of things people actually have here and items that are considered delicacies. She takes this list and decides to try a small number of the foods each day... once she completes this and has herself a list she heads to the lounge and has the replicator create a main course a side dish and a drink at random from the list.
[11:34]
(what should she have...)
tugar
[11:35 PM]
(Delicacies or comfort food....lobster might be intimidating, but Fettucini alfredo, a good garlic bread, tiramisu or a cannelloni/eclair?) (edited)
[11:36]
(Beef wellington?)
[11:38]
*Seafood Paella)
[11:38]
(44. Poutine, Canada
French fries smothered in cheese curds and brown gravy. Sounds kind of disgusting, looks even worse, but engulfs the mouth in a saucy, cheesy, fried-potato mix that’ll have you fighting over the last dollop...LOL)
risaxseph [11:38 PM]
Tiramisu with actual rum in it is created. A bubble tea and meatloaf are also dispensed. She takes the food and takes a seat. (kind of random meatloaf a dessert and bubble tea yeah...)
[11:40]
(I remember one time a character literally had the replicator select an item at random from the database for them they gave them some Klingon food that was literally the blood of enemies... The person almost died inside...)
tugar
[11:41 PM]
(yeah, guides are helpful)
risaxseph [11:43 PM]
"... Hum..." she began to eat and thought about what Nicklas could be doing. He did say that he had to go teach someone piano but considering that it was hours later she had assumed that that was over. She checked the sensors to see where he was.
tugar
[11:44 PM]
"Nicklas Blom is in his quarters."
risaxseph [11:49 PM]
She has the meatloaf first noting it was a main course. It was hamburger. Beef was interesting in that certain nutrients came from it but it was not necessarily good for you. She needed to stop thinking about food in the sense of being only for nutritional purposes though... as he had said it was supposed to be more of an experience it was more of an involved process then just consuming... After having it she moved to the dessert. This was especially sweet she could see were people were only supposed to have a little bit but it was quite good in the little bit of alcohol in it actually provided a better taste. She saw how alcohol could be used in cooking to enhance flavor. After finishing both of these and the drink she decided that she would head to his quarters. She put the plates away and then headed to his room. (edited)
[11:52]
Once she arrived at his door she press the call button as she assumed it just automatically overriding the door would not be appropriate (being that she is the ship she can do that... not exactly a nice thing to do for someone you've only spoken to a handful of times though... in theory she could get in trouble for doing it with someone that wasn't OK with it)
tugar
[11:53 PM]
"Come in please." Niklas said, noting it was Lumi. "Ah Miss Trouve. A pleasure. My first true visitor." He put the book he was reading down and got up off the couch.
risaxseph [11:54 PM]
"how did your piano lesson go... was the crewmember effective at learning it?"
tugar
[11:56 PM]
"Like most piano students in their initial training, it was....painful, but the dexterity is there at least. Some time and practice will surely improve them."
[11:57]
"What is it that brings you to my humble abode?" He added
risaxseph [11:59 PM]
"... I see so they were not very good... I am sorry that the experience was emotionally draining for you. I came because I felt I wanted to continue our conversation. I also attempted to try foods... I believe I have a plan to try new food each day... I am looking forward to this."
----- May 28th -----
tugar
[12:00 AM]
"ah...if you need guidance....I am rather unburdened at the moment. I could provide some useful insight."
risaxseph [12:04 AM]
"... I am actually interested in other things in life... I have been at this party for a couple months and I feel that I've adjusted to it but there are a lot of things I haven't experienced... even love as I had mentioned before... it is a new idea to me... you have lived a long time between you and Erik I believe I can become quite experienced in life."
[12:08]
"Tell me about some of the best experiences you've had if you would not mind..."
tugar
[12:10 AM]
"That's a rather broad brush you paint with, but I'm game." He paced as he thought about it.
risaxseph [12:12 AM]
"I do not know how to... be any less broad... I have a limited Number of experiences to go off of... mainly by myself learning about my body and how to be a person properly then Yuka, Aidan, Jeane and Erik. Outside of that in my life experience has been very limited."
[12:13]
"I only recently just became less childish so that is a plus."
tugar
[12:19 AM]
"There was a time, it was a few years before Elisa and I met. We were coworkers of a manner, she worked elsewhere but our paths crossed. We chatted at after-work meetings and she knew I was enchanted by her. She was about 11 years older and thought nothing would ever happen between us. One day we had ended up leaving together and she turned around. It was a hot day, we were both slightly sweating. I don't think I ever wanted someone as much as I wanted her in that moment. It was tender, sweet, electric. As our lips touched for the first time....I could not imagine such joy existed in the world." (edited)
risaxseph [12:22 AM]
"... oh... the essence of romance. It is a good feeling. I wonder if there is such a thing as "true love" or if it's just some fictional legendary prospect that people talk about acting as though it really does exist even though it doesn't... what do you think?"
tugar
[12:25 AM]
"I think it does....but it requires certain things to be in place. Honesty first. Attraction helps, though sometimes people are thrown together and it works out in the end."
[12:25]
"You don't lie to someone you love."
risaxseph [12:27 AM]
"Huh... What should I do... Do you think it's appropriate for someone like me to be dating or trying to?"
tugar
[12:28 AM]
"If that's what you want. Why does that thought come to you? Do you think you are unworthy of love?"
risaxseph [12:29 AM]
"I do not know. I've been told I'm just like everyone else but that is not true."
[12:30]
"i'm not the same I am unique... if I cannot even understand myself how can I expect someone else to understand me."
tugar
[12:32 AM]
'Ah...over analyzing. Do you think people wait for every secret of themselves to be revealed before looking for love?"
risaxseph [12:33 AM]
"... I do not believe such a thing is possible... it's impossible for any normal person to know everything about themselves because they're ever changing."
tugar
[12:34 AM]
"As I would suspect of yourself as well. Sometimes people complete each other. Like....salt on watermelon."
risaxseph [12:35 AM]
"... salt... watermelon... why would you place salt on fruit?"
[12:35]
"why would fruit need sodium content..."
tugar
[12:36 AM]
Niklas laughed. "You're connected to the computer....how many desserts contain salt as an ingredient?" (edited)
[12:36]
(most)
risaxseph [12:37 AM]
"... well some non-human cultures to even consume the blood of their enemies as part of their victory... I guess even though the idea they seem foreign to me it is not necessarily unheard of."
tugar
[12:37 AM]
"Salt makes watermelon taste sweeter by creating a salty sweet contrast that allows the sweetness of the melon to stand out."
risaxseph [12:38 AM]
"I do not understand how consuming your enemies heart would make you stronger but in some cultures that is a thing."
tugar
[12:39 AM]
"Some of that is myth and just became popular culture. Like our Mohawk brothers from Earth's history."
[12:39]
"But we are straying from the issue. You are lovable."
risaxseph [12:40 AM]
"... How should I proceed?" (such a goddamned open question)
tugar
[12:44 AM]
"Find someone that you like or care about and see where it goes. They may be aboard. They may be on the interwebs somewhere. There is an old saying, if you never tell someone you care about them and they never fall in love with you, it's your fault. Though I know the wording was different, that is the sentiment."
risaxseph [12:46 AM]
"... I only have felt "love" for Yuka. I've been attracted to others but they are not possible."
tugar
[12:46 AM]
"Why. That seems self-defeating."
risaxseph [12:50 AM]
"I cannot go after her fiancé. Jeane returned to her home world. (The player that played that character actually is no longer around) Erik does not want to become human... having a relationship with "myself" even though he is part of another computer system... it is... not possible... You I just met. Misaki Hiroki is to be married."
tugar
[12:51 AM]
"Wait....then what is Erik?"
risaxseph [12:52 AM]
"Erik is a holographic trainer AI that Aidan and I created to help teach me about humanity, sexuality, dating and the like."
tugar
[12:53 AM]
"Is he sentient or just a compilation of responses?"
risaxseph [12:54 AM]
"Sentient. I created him that way so that he would be able to actually be an accurate partner to teach me... I can't adequately learn with just a mess of subroutines." (edited)
tugar
[12:56 AM]
"So you can't love him because he's a hologram? Do you see the flaw yet?"
risaxseph [12:58 AM]
"... it's not... I see him as an extension of my ship self. Not like a child or anything because that would be weird... but... It's like... how to explain... I feel I'd be in A relationship with a part of my computer system only because I forced that to occur."
tugar
[1:00 AM]
"So separate them. Or yourself. You're human now. Why do you need the computer....some sort of safety net I assume. You could always ask Eric is he wants an android body, though I suspect it would be easier to have you disconnect." (edited)
risaxseph [1:01 AM]
"... I... feel I would lose part of myself if I disconnected permanently."
tugar
[1:02 AM]
"Birds leave the nest to grow."
risaxseph [1:02 AM]
"though... he could be given a body as you suggest."
tugar
[1:03 AM]
"I think at some point, you need to do it, or you stunt your own growth"
risaxseph [1:04 AM]
"... Medically there is no reason I can't at least from what I understand... if I need to do my work I can still interact with the computer system through my implant... so I don't need to remain constantly connected anyway..."
[1:06]
"With RINZ it was different because he was two consciousness is being that I am one it is possible for me to safely disconnect."
[1:07]
"... What are your intentions here now that you are free?"
tugar
[1:09 AM]
"Me...I have no idea. While could have another human body grown....I want to explore this existence." (edited)
risaxseph [1:14 AM]
Lumi disconnects herself from the computer on a trial basis for now. She'll connect to do work or if required for some reason but she figures she should at least entertain multiple people's advice. "Will you help me explore this experience? I know that certain things will be more difficult and Erik can help me with those but... you've actually experienced life... you're not just something that me and someone else generated to assist me... I know that my statements may contradict what I may have said before but... there is something to be said for experience and a bunch of data can't replace that... i've learned as much in the two months I've been in the position I'm in..."
[1:16]
"an example would be the food taste cannot be just put into a database it's an experience..."
[1:16]
"and each individual has their own interpretation of that experience."
tugar
[1:18 AM]
"I think you will find not being connected to the computer, not as limiting as you suspect. Like you said, you have access. I would be honored to help you....and in addition you can help me." Niklas commented.
risaxseph [1:19 AM]
"I would be glad to help you... as long as you don't break my arm again... as interesting as the experience of bleeding out was the pain was not exactly a very desirable outcome... I would rather not re-experience that."
tugar
[1:20 AM]
"THAT was a regrettable reaction out of fear. I have trouble hurting any life. I sometimes get grief over squashing insects. So I will make it up to you anyway I can."
risaxseph [1:22 AM]
"... Okay... By the way call me Lumi. I believe you've earned the right to refer to me by my first name."
[1:23]
"it was quite an interesting prospect been given the ability to name oneself... "
tugar
[1:24 AM]
"A hard habit to break after 6 decades as a civil servant. It's a local affectation. Nearly all civilians are called Miss or Mister, but I shall try, though I may have to resort to Miss Lumi." (edited)
risaxseph [1:27 AM]
She grinned "that will do just fine." She said with a slight giggle. "by the way I'm actually a Lieutenant in Trinity... so civilian wouldn't really be an appropriate term for me I to serve the people just in a different capacity... protecting them from harm while people like you and Lady Hukari govern them."
tugar
[1:29 AM]
"Used to anyway. I guess I will have to find a new profession. Any ideas?"
risaxseph [1:32 AM]
"even our captain is more of a politician than I am... I literally was the artificial intelligence of a warship. You can continue to be a politician here I believe we don't have a diplomatic officer. Say... Do you have any advice on how to make sexual acts more pleasurable... that may be an inappropriate question but... I find myself fascinated by the experience... I apologize if it's offensive in anyway."
tugar
[1:37 AM]
"I wouldn't say offensive.....though certainly unexpected. I forget I am an old man in a different body. My advice after being married for a long time it to stop concentrating on the act as much as the person. It's rare that two people are in sync when it comes to sex. Usually it's more give and take. Sometimes taking someone past the point of no return is rewarding in ways you don't suspect."
risaxseph [1:41 AM]
"... well emotions are more alluring to women anyway but physical is always nice... I've only had two brief experiences with a man and two with a woman... all of them were great since I actually had feelings for the person... Past the point of no return- climax?"
tugar
[1:42 AM]
"Usually, Women are ruled by emotion. Men are too, just different emotions. You need connections to the person you're with. Men need lust to be in love. At least most men."
risaxseph [1:44 AM]
"... Um..." she rolls her eyes then just gets on with it "do you know if they made of that body capable of sex?"
tugar
[1:46 AM]
"It is...though with Candy I suspect it be more about the control of men, than any true desire for full functionality."
risaxseph [1:48 AM]
"... Would you like to explore that "functionality" with me?" She asks "You did say you find me attractive... You're not in the flesh of an old man... you have the knowledge and passion and someone years ahead but the body... of... well you're quite attractive yourself..."
tugar
[1:53 AM]
"I am flattered....and interested. But I am going to decline that very pleasant sounding event. For me, it has to be lust for someone I actually love. You and I don't know enough about each other for this to be meaningful to me. Sex is a treasure. It should be explored as such, not cheaply squandered like water on dirt road. It just makes mud. Though I will reserve the right to change my mind at a later date. It's not a snub of you Lumi. Just something I feel personally."
risaxseph [1:56 AM]
"... Okay... It's fine. I just thought I'd offer... You are the first to decline actually. For reasons that actually make me feel valuable."
tugar
[2:01 AM]
"That isn't surprising seeing how beautiful and curvy you are. I don't think most people would resist you, I'm still getting used to myself, such as I am now. That's all. But keep me in mind for eating engagements. Dating as it were, though not what you had in mind I suspect."
risaxseph [2:03 AM]
"I need someone to bounce intellectualness along with anyway... though it would be nice... maybe it's better for both of us... I think I'm gunna go for now though if that's alright."
tugar
[2:05 AM]
"I think it best...sad for both of us, but better in the long run. I could plan breakfast. Introduce a few things you might enjoy?"
risaxseph [2:08 AM]
"Okay. I get off at 0800 so it would actually be dinner for me but breakfast for dinner seems interesting... I believe it's something they do sometimes on earth." She turns around to go a little disappointed but fulfilled nonetheless. She would get someone else to experience life with even if not her sexuality for now; though because of her naivety she did not yet understand the reasoning as to why one would have an exclusive relationship. (edited)
tugar
[2:10 AM]
"It's a date."
risaxseph [2:12 AM]
She waved and headed out returning to her quarters as she still had like six hours before her shift began (do you want to end here because it is late I planned to have her talk to Erik too since this brought up some things and some confusion she has( like above about exclusive relationships))
[2:13]
(there is much she does not understand)
tugar
[2:14 AM]
(yeah getting late)
risaxseph [2:16 AM]
<end sim>
risaxseph [10:44 PM]
<start sim> Lumi returned to her quarters still contemplating the conversion with Nick. She wanted to talk about it and she sort of felt down even though she understood and respected the reason and it made her feel good she still felt strangely about being rejected. This also brought up a good question about mutual exclusivity and what that meant... she also wanted to propose the idea of Erik having an android body if he wanted it.
[10:45]
(he would've still been active this entire time she would actually not turn him off. Her face shows something is on her mind)
tugar
[10:47 PM]
"Hey." Erik said. "Anything interesting happening?"
risaxseph [10:48 PM]
"... Hello... I had a really weird day today. Things are a lot more complicated than they seem..." she said in a normal tone.
tugar
[10:52 PM]
Erik put down the padd. "Why not tell me about it?"
risaxseph [10:53 PM]
"... I have a question first... so... we started dating... what is the idea behind mutual exclusivity...?"
[10:55]
She took a seat on the couch
tugar
[11:00 PM]
"Oh boy." He said and drew in a breath and let it out slowly. "It means you both agree to not date other people. Like a marriage, just without the paperwork. What brings this up?"
risaxseph [11:08 PM]
"... I met someone today Who I've been working with... He helped me learn about food and we talked a little about my life... I found him enlightening and attractive... He even suggested if you want it to give you a body of an android. I felt like I bonded and so I asked him if he wanted to be with me... he declined... now I feel all weird and then the question of what does all this... like with him; my feelings; you; my feelings and even Yuka... if someone is only supposed to be with one person then am I wrong... did I do something inappropriate by developing feelings for others?"
[11:08]
(she's starting to sound like a teenager)
tugar
[11:11 PM]
"It would depend on how you feel about me. I don't really have option of cruising around the ship looking for a date. Though I suppose I could. Should I start looking for someone new? How does that make you feel?"
risaxseph [11:18 PM]
"... I don't know... I'm- I... I ... " she paused because she doesn't know what to say. "I like you I know that but the rest of this I don't understand... and then I feel guilty because even though I know you can think for yourself... I keep thinking that because you were made for me that this isn't real... but what is real... it's what we interpret so I have no idea... why I even think like that... i'm a hypocrite..." she seemed to genuinely sad now
tugar
[11:21 PM]
"So..you feel I'm contrived. Can I offered a slightly different perspective?"
[11:22]
"Where did my personality come from?"
risaxseph [11:23 PM]
"... go ahead... You were based off of Aidan Thornton the ships XO... with some slight modifications to make you more unique but basically... yeah..."
tugar
[11:23 PM]
"So how does Aidan feel about you?"
risaxseph [11:24 PM]
"... I... think he likes me..." (edited)
tugar
[11:29 PM]
'A fair assessment. What if he could feel the same way about you, but circumstances cannot allow his interest to be revealed. Since I am patterned after him....how could I not be interested in you? Whether you can return that is the question. I am only a program....though a fairly complex one." (edited)
risaxseph [11:30 PM]
"So was I... it's why I said I'm a hypocrite... I'm foolish..."
tugar
[11:31 PM]
"Or simply human. People make mistakes. It's what happens after the discovery that is the point."
risaxseph [11:34 PM]
"... So my feelings for others shouldn't be shown if I intend to have a relationship with someone? This is the real point of dating then to know you love someone with your whole and that you can resist the temptation of others because your feelings for that person are stronger?"
tugar
[11:37 PM]
"For most people. You find the one that makes you the happiest and go from there. Some people have open relationships, but I like to think that's abnormal. It's not that we cannot love more than one, but how devoted is someone if they are always looking for the next person and not devoting themselves to the relationship."
risaxseph [11:39 PM]
"I see... but you can only devote yourself to so many people... before you get too outstretched and can't really care for any of them... at that point all the relationships would be meaningless..."
[11:39]
"it would just be having a bunch of sex friends."
tugar
[11:40 PM]
"It's just sex at that point."
risaxseph [11:42 PM]
"I want sex and bonds with people... That sort of thing... would be too tepid..."
tugar
[11:43 PM]
"By bonds you mean...."
risaxseph [11:44 PM]
"... Emotional attachment..."
tugar
[11:47 PM]
"So how do you feel about me?" Erik asked. "Don't think. Answer me."
risaxseph [11:48 PM]
"I want to be with you. I wanted to finish where we left off."
tugar
[11:50 PM]
"If I say I never want a physical body, android or otherwise?"
risaxseph [11:54 PM]
"... I want... I might want to have children someday and if you don't have a physical form... If something were to happen to the computer... I ... " she stops again she then tells him "I've disconnected myself from the computer unless I need it for work... i've been told by a number of people that I should do that so I did." (edited)
tugar
[11:57 PM]
"You need to grow up. If that means losing me in the process....that doesn't make it bad....just they way life is. What I want is your happiness." (edited)
risaxseph [11:58 PM]
"... what..."
----- May 29th -----
tugar
[12:03 AM]
"You need to experience humanity in all its aspects. You are not going to be able to do that, tethered to the ship. If we stay together, nothing would make me happier."
risaxseph [12:05 AM]
"... I thought you were breaking up with me..." Tears finally come out; this is one of the few times she's actually shed tears.
tugar
[12:05 AM]
"Don't steal my words. You're the one meeting people."
risaxseph [12:09 AM]
"... I'm confused... but I don't want to lose people... I feel like if I lose someone I'll never get them back... I initially created you with the intent of learning how to date and about people... I never... thought I'd actually want to be in love with you."
tugar
[12:11 AM]
"Well thanks for THAT vote of confidence. I'll just go and decompile myself now." Erik teased. "So what's this loser's name?"
risaxseph [12:12 AM]
"The person who rejected me? Nick Blom."
tugar
[12:13 AM]
"Ah...the artificial politician. You should know since you copied Aidan's profile. I don't share well."
risaxseph [12:14 AM]
"...I still know so little."
[12:15]
"... I have so much information in my head but it's all worthless at least as far as actually knowing about life..."
tugar
[12:16 AM]
"You have information.....not experience."
risaxseph [12:17 AM]
"it's like I would have better and I just copied the ships database of poetry at least then I would have useful knowledge... if I want children... or to go somewhere that you cannot go..."
tugar
[12:18 AM]
"I'm sure we can come up with something. But even if I have a human or android body....the DNA is contrived. " (edited)
risaxseph [12:25 AM]
"now that I think about it... there are mobile interfaces for holographic projection... there never really used because it's not really ever needed." She goes over to the replicator and creates a more advanced version of the Mobile Emitter. "Lavie..." she said calling her holographic self which is now a different person in essence. The AI hologram appears next to Erik. "transfer his program to this emitter." She nods and does as her other self instructed. Lumi puts the emitter on him. This one can cloak to make it appear as though it doesn't even exist. "I guess the operations logistics degree I gave myself was actually useful for once... I never even have to use it on the bridge but I guess knowing a bunch of useless technological information is actually useful for once... now you don't actually need a body... you are you can you can go to and from the ship as you please... you just transfer your program back to the ship..." Lavie grins at her human self. " when we have conversations you can say that you were talking to yourself it will really confuse people."
tugar
[12:26 AM]
"Awesome. Thanks babe." he kissed her.
[12:27]
"So you ever plan to show me off or am I just your boy toy?" (edited)
risaxseph [12:30 AM]
"... we never did finish this... well I guess that would have been... yesterday... stupid... was it the day before that... either way we never really did finish because of that stupid attack... I had to go leave." Lavie leaves Lumi and Erik to their business. She believes spying on herself would be equally as confusing so she figures she will just leave the other her alone.
[12:33]
"... I wonder how long it will be before she becomes separate..." Lumi asked A serious question for a moment referring to the AI of the ship (The computer in the ships AI are actually two separate things; it's like saying the emergency command hologram on Voyager was the ships computer in essence yes they were but they were different pieces of the same system their purposes were intertwined... Computer handles basic requests and most general operations the artificial intelligence is actually a command program that exists to provide assistance to the ships command personnel... even though technically it has never really done it's job...)
tugar
[12:35 AM]
"And for real kink, I could take over Lavie and you could have sex with yourself." Erik teased, then instantly regretted it as she might want to.
risaxseph [12:36 AM]
"... Hum... though she's just as perverted as I am... Will it still be classified as masturbation because I would literally be doing myself... in a really roundabout way... that's extremely confusing to think about..."
tugar
[12:37 AM]
"Good. I was teasing." he put his arms around her.
[12:37]
"I want you, I just don't want to be you." He stuck out his tongue.
risaxseph [12:38 AM]
"I think I'd rather have myself and myself with you to be honest anyway..."
[12:38]
"would that even be a threesome because you would still be having me... that's even more confusing..."
[12:39]
"this is just a horrible idea..." she grins
[12:39]
"you're bad for even considering it..." she kisses him
tugar
[12:40 AM]
"I have Aidan's sense of humor. Personally I blame him."
risaxseph [12:41 AM]
"I think we can blame all of this on Yuka... it's a safe bet it's somehow her fault..." she teased The poor girl who is not even in the room
tugar
[12:42 AM]
"Works for me, never met her." Erik says.
risaxseph [12:44 AM]
"You'll need to meet her... since we are making this a more boyfriend girlfriend thing... I sort of consider her my sister obviously you've got to meet my family..."
[12:46]
"we can do that later though... I work in a few hours... if we want to get anything done before I have to prepare..."
tugar
[12:47 AM]
"What did you have in mind?"
risaxseph [12:49 AM]
"... We never finished... didn't I just say that like five minutes ago or do you make a habit of leaving your girls wanting" she quipped
tugar
[12:51 AM]
"Maybe you should just take what you want." he teased.
risaxseph [12:53 AM]
"... Eh... would just take all the fun out of teasing you though..." (we actually can continue this later it is about 2 AM for you)
tugar
[12:53 AM]
(god for another 30)
[12:55]
"Teasing is all well and good. Wanna know the best part of being a hologram? If I say I have a 12 inch tongue and breath through my ears, I can make it happen for you." He squeezes her ass playfully.
risaxseph [12:57 AM]
"Or if I wanted you to have... large... No... I'm not going there I am must walk myself off the perv cliff..." (I also have something to do too... maybe I should've just said that... lol) <pause sim>
